Here and now.

Well hello!

I wanted to start this blog weeks ago but just like an essay I never knew where to start. I guess this is sort of like a journal that everyone reads right? I must keep that in mind. I wouldn't think people would find my journal very interesting. It was always a place that I ran to when I was sad or feeling alone. Getting it out on paper and not forgetting, but leaving those feelings behind was always a way that I coped with stress. 

Moving on... :)

This blog will be dedicated to my closest family and friend who worry about me. Haha no, that is a joke. I only need two worriers in my life and those two would be my parents. 

I go through times where I become introverted (no one believes me when I say this) but I have learned that it is another coping mechanism for dealing with stress. This will be the portal where you all can check on how little Bree Bree is doing. I have always tried to stay away from anything that could expose my insecurities (for example writing in this blog) because I consider myself to be not such a great writer. I do however believe that you have to face the things you fear most to conquer them. This is my attempt to document my life events and to become a better writer. 

2013 has been such an eventful year in my life. It blows my mind to reflect back and see how I have gotten to where I am. The simplest day to day decisions shape your life. I have always told myself to follow my heart and to always embrace who I am and what I believe. Life is tough sometimes but I have found things that bring me back to me. No matter how little or how often I practice Yoga and Meditation they will always be a huge part of my life. It'll always there and I will always have it to turn to. Without fail these practices help me get back on track. 

So since no one has subscribed to my blog yet I guess it is okay to spill the beans about something that that has been so hard to keep a secret..... Here goes... Cam and I are having a baby stout! I will be four weeks in four days! It feels like a dream that I keep thinking I am going to wake up from, but it is real and it is happening. We know exactly when it happened too. The story is quite interesting and lovely and I will tell it while sparing the details. 

We had only been in Portland a month when Cameron had to leave for three weeks to open mad stores in the big ol city of New York. I had been dreading this since 1. Cam was my rock, he held me together with just a few short words. 2. I didn't know a sole in this new city. So as you can imagine I was a crazy wreck for those looooong three weeks. We could hardly stand to be apart since we hadn't left each others side since I moved to Dallas. This guy flew me out to NYC! I am so loved by him it humbles me every time I think about how thoughtful and supportive he is. Anyway jees, i'm getting all teary eyed! So when I get to the airport I find that I am a day early for my flight. GREAT. I couldn't believe this had happened. JetBlue arranged for me to hop on a flight that night anyways. There was no way I could have waited another day! As I descended I noticed that the time was 5:00 am. I couldn't remember the last time I saw 5 am but I was wide eyed and ready to smooch the babe that would be waiting curbside for me. Little did I know that that day would be the day that changed our lives forever. The love that we have and had for each other that day radiated for miles. Later that day I checked my Pcalender (again trying not to get into details ha) and found that that day had been the only day that month that I was ovulating. Go figure. 

It blows our minds that couples try for months and months to get pregnant but for us it only took one uups! That uups should have happened later in our lives but now we are blessed with this little soul inside me and we are so excited and so full of love that we wouldn't want it any other way.

Off to bed now.

With love, Bree XO